Not Meant to Be

Well sadly this pregnancy is not going to stay around.  It came back as such a strong positive and then went downhill from there.  I am so mad and angry right now and can't understand why this is happening.  I just wish it would have been negative from the start or even questionable instead of coming back as a strong positive.  I guess we will just have to wait and see what our RE says about everything but at this point I really don't know if I can go through all of this anymore.

Too Long....

I have been gone for a while now.  We have been busy having a ball with Adam, who is now 3 and just as crazy as can be!  He is definitely all boy - loves all things bugs, trucks, construction, trains, airplanes - you name it.  He is just the light of our lives and we thank God everyday for him. 

I am hoping to write on here more because these next months coming up are something I am going to want to not forget!  After 2 1/2 years of trying for baby #2 - today I can FINALLY say it's happening!  After 1 fresh IVF and 3 frozen embryo cycles we finally are pregnant!  And this time was it for us, these were are last 2 embryos and it worked!  I am still in shock but so, so, so thankful to God for blessing us!

RE Follow Up

We had our follow up with our RE today and it didn't go well.  Basically, my AMH value is .56 and someone my age should have a value between 2-4, so in so many words my eggs are crap (those of a 40+ year old).  We have a 30% chance of getting pregnant.  We still have 2 more frozen blasts but I am not feeling so great about those since we have transferred 5 from the cycle and none of them took.  So at this point I am thinking we need to seriously consider donor eggs or adoption.  We will still have another frozen cycle with the 2 we have because I can't leave them.  We won't be doing that though until September or October, I just want to enjoy the summer first.  But I really think we need to figure out what we are going to do if that frozen cycle fails (which I have a feeling it will).

I just have to thank God for that beautiful, perfect angel I have napping upstairs right now!!!!!

Yet Again - Negative

Wish I had better news but once again I got that awful call that it didn't work.

Transfer Complete

Yesterday we had our transfer - everything went really good!  We ended up trasnferring 3 blastocysts - one of them was already hatching (which is a great sign).  I was very shocked when the doctor came in and said we have 3 that we're going to put back with a very, very miniscule chance that all 3 would take.  I thought for sure that the most he would transfer would be 2 so needless to say I still think I am in shock that there are actually 3 blastocysts inside me right now.  I am freaked out about the thought of all of them taking - I think I could handle 2 but 3 really scares me!  All I am praying for it to work!  My blood test is on May 21st, so we'll know then if it worked!

FET Date

Sorry I have been MIA lately.  Things are all good here.  I have been taking meds in preperation for our frozen embryo cycle.  I went to the doctor today for a check and everything is looking good so one week from today will be our transfer!  This has to be it - 3rd time trying for number 2 - so third times a charm, right?!

Adam is Learning

Today I made tater tots for dinner and Adam asked me for some more cylinders! I died laughing - I know he learned what cylinders are from Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, that is where he learned all of his shapes (with my emphasizing it as well on our own) but he knows all the basic shapes and also cone, sphere, cube and we are working on all the "gons" hexagon, pentagon, octagon. He is doing pretty well with counting and can pretty much count to 20 with a little bit of help - can count to 10 no problem. And he does pretty well with his colors. We are now starting to work on letters - my goal is to have him know them all by the time he is 3. He also loves to sing! His favorites to sing with no help are - Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, On the Good Ship Lollipop, ABCs and his newest Take Me Out to the Ballgame. I taught him to sing that song to say root for the Cardinals (I am from St. Louis and love them) and my husband just cringes everytime since he was born here in Detroit and loves the Tigers.