So my husband's old back up computer that I was using when mine crashed now has a virus, so I haven't been able to use it for a while - that's why no updates from me. I am at my parents now but don't have any pictures on here so hopefully by the end of next week we'll have a new one and I can update on our trip to Disney, Adam's 2nd birthday and my upcoming IVF!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Stay Tuned....
We just got back from Disney yesterday and I want to post everything about the trip and pictures but I am trying to unpack and get ready for Adam's 2nd birthday this weekend - so as soon as I can, I will update on everything!
Friday, November 11, 2011
Quick Picture Update
So I took my laptop to the Geek Squad and they were able to save all of my pictures and videos onto a external hard drive. I LOVE them. My computer is shot but I am using on of my hubby's old ones for now until we find a good sale on one, which I am sure with the holidays coming up might not be a problem.
I started really Christmas shopping this week, my goal is to have it all done before Thanksgiving because we are busy every weekend in December and I know at the beginning of January we will have a ton of money going out the door for IVF #2!
Speaking of that, I feel so good about it already. We joined a gym and I have been working with a trainer, my last sessions are next week. But I feel like I am really getting my body in good shape and ready to go for this IVF. When we did the first one I was over weight and not in shape at all - so I am hoping this will only help. As soon as I start stims I am going to stop working out but until then I am going to keep going. And God willing if I do get pregnant I will be in better shape this time and take care of myself better so that I am not as big as when I had Adam.
Here is a picture of Adam on Halloween - he wouldn't wear the ears that came with the costume and he only had these ears on long enough for a picture but he was still the cutest Mickey. Then the other picture is from Adam's 1st Hockey Game.
I started really Christmas shopping this week, my goal is to have it all done before Thanksgiving because we are busy every weekend in December and I know at the beginning of January we will have a ton of money going out the door for IVF #2!
Speaking of that, I feel so good about it already. We joined a gym and I have been working with a trainer, my last sessions are next week. But I feel like I am really getting my body in good shape and ready to go for this IVF. When we did the first one I was over weight and not in shape at all - so I am hoping this will only help. As soon as I start stims I am going to stop working out but until then I am going to keep going. And God willing if I do get pregnant I will be in better shape this time and take care of myself better so that I am not as big as when I had Adam.
Here is a picture of Adam on Halloween - he wouldn't wear the ears that came with the costume and he only had these ears on long enough for a picture but he was still the cutest Mickey. Then the other picture is from Adam's 1st Hockey Game.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Halloween
We had so much fun this year! Adam really got the whole Trick or Treating thing down and he said Thank You at each house without prompting! I was such a proud Mommy with that! He wore a Mickey Mouse costume and was so dang cute! I would post pictures but they are on my laptop and it crashed yesterday! I am praying that when we take it to the repair place today they can get all of my pictures and videos off of there -they start from the day when Adam was born and I never backed them up (I know - bad, bad, bad)! I have been praying and praying that these can be recovered, at this point I don't care what it will cost me.
Last night we went to Adam's 1st Hockey Game! He really seemed to like it. He got a puck and was on the jumbo tron - so much fun! Hopefully in a couple of days I can post pictures! Please cross your fingers that I can get these files!
Last night we went to Adam's 1st Hockey Game! He really seemed to like it. He got a puck and was on the jumbo tron - so much fun! Hopefully in a couple of days I can post pictures! Please cross your fingers that I can get these files!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
A Couple of Quick Pictures
Adam and his Yo Gabba Gabba pumpkins! My husband is getting really good at carving! We did these while he was napping and when he saw them he got so excited. I am so glad I decided to look online and see if they had some stencils for this instead of using the ones we bought from the store of bats and stuff.
Adam and I were ready for Game 7 of the World Series! I am originally from St. Louis and have grown up loving the Cardinals! We were so excited here when they won!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
First Taste of Halloween
Bob's company does a big Halloween party every year for the kids. This is the first year that we have gone since we live in Michigan now. I was so impressed with how big they do it. It's at their offices and they have decorations everywhere and a path that the kids follow and go trick or treating. Adam picked up the concept of trick or treat right away! After the first stop he was hooked and looking into every office to see if they had candy. We then had pizza and every family brings a dessert, so you can imagine the sweets there were! I ate way too much!
They also do a pumpkin carving contest. I thought we had a really good pumpkin and was pretty proud of it but when we saw the other ones, holy cow ours was so amateur! The other ones were professional like, some even had sound to them!
My sweet little lion!
Our pumpkin for the contest.
The Cake Pops I made for our dessert.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Yes I Am Still Here
It has been a LONG, LONG time! We have been so busy!
Since I last updated we have relocated to Michigan. It was really, really hard at first but I think both Adam and I are starting to get used to it. The move here was terrible, we had really bad luck with the moving company we used (they ruined a bunch of our stuff, which still isn't fixed)took a lot longer than anticiptated so I think off the bat I was not happy about the whole situation at all. My husband is so happy to be back where he grew up and where his friends and family are - now if he just wouldn't work so much we could actually see everyone more. He has been working on this one project since we moved that has taken up so much of his time - everyday he is gone before we get up and many days doesn't get home until after we are in bed! Also, there has been maybe 15 or so days that he has made it home for dinner. I had a really hard time with all of this and was really depressed about the whole thing for a while there. It wasn't pretty at all, I was actually getting really worried about myself. But, things are getting better. Adam and I are going out and doing more things - he has a music class and a playgroup class he does at the park district here, and I am constantly looking for more things to do so we can meet new people. And Bob's project he is working on is starting to slow down so he is getting home at a normal time lately - which is awesome for us all to be together as a family! That was the whole point of us moving here to be together more often.
Adam is doing AMAZING! He is talking SO MUCH and we can have little conversations with him. He LOVES to sing and his favorite shows are Yo Gabba Gabba and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. We actually took him to see Yo Gabba Gabba LIVE a few weeks ago and he was so adorable there! He didn't move a muscle the entire time. I can tell that he is going to be a shy kid like Bob and I both were growing up. He tends to stand back in music class and isn't the kid that is loud and running around but he is getting so much better about not having to be right by me the whole time. I am really trying to find something for him where I can drop him off and leave because I feel like he needs something like that. It's to the point where I can't leave him at all, not even with Bob or he'll cry.
We were at my parents house a few weeks ago and my dad introduced Adam to Oreos - oh goodness, the boy can't get enough of them now. We were at the grocery store with Bob the other day and we walked by the Oreos and Bob asked Adam if he like Oreos and he replied, "I love them!" It was so funny, I have no idea where he got that! He has started calling me "Honey" and he calls Bob "Babe" - since that is what Bob and I call each other. He has been singing his ABCs lately and has almost all of the letters down except the LMNOP part is a little jumbled together and he can count to 20! I am so proud of how much he is developing lately! He just amazes me everyday!
Now on to some news! Bob and I have met with a new doctor here and we are going to be do another round of IVF in January! I will start the birth control pills in December and then in January I will start all of the drugs and have the egg retrieval by mid-January probably! I am SO excited but also nervous and scared. This doctor seems awesome and they have a incredible success rate but he has already said that he is going to up my meds this time and they do things a little differently than my last doctor did (they don't have me come in as often), which makes me nervous but I just keep telling myself that they have had a ton of success.
Here are some pictures from when we went to Yo Gabba Gabba live - the one with Bob is how he was the entire show!
Since I last updated we have relocated to Michigan. It was really, really hard at first but I think both Adam and I are starting to get used to it. The move here was terrible, we had really bad luck with the moving company we used (they ruined a bunch of our stuff, which still isn't fixed)took a lot longer than anticiptated so I think off the bat I was not happy about the whole situation at all. My husband is so happy to be back where he grew up and where his friends and family are - now if he just wouldn't work so much we could actually see everyone more. He has been working on this one project since we moved that has taken up so much of his time - everyday he is gone before we get up and many days doesn't get home until after we are in bed! Also, there has been maybe 15 or so days that he has made it home for dinner. I had a really hard time with all of this and was really depressed about the whole thing for a while there. It wasn't pretty at all, I was actually getting really worried about myself. But, things are getting better. Adam and I are going out and doing more things - he has a music class and a playgroup class he does at the park district here, and I am constantly looking for more things to do so we can meet new people. And Bob's project he is working on is starting to slow down so he is getting home at a normal time lately - which is awesome for us all to be together as a family! That was the whole point of us moving here to be together more often.
Adam is doing AMAZING! He is talking SO MUCH and we can have little conversations with him. He LOVES to sing and his favorite shows are Yo Gabba Gabba and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. We actually took him to see Yo Gabba Gabba LIVE a few weeks ago and he was so adorable there! He didn't move a muscle the entire time. I can tell that he is going to be a shy kid like Bob and I both were growing up. He tends to stand back in music class and isn't the kid that is loud and running around but he is getting so much better about not having to be right by me the whole time. I am really trying to find something for him where I can drop him off and leave because I feel like he needs something like that. It's to the point where I can't leave him at all, not even with Bob or he'll cry.
We were at my parents house a few weeks ago and my dad introduced Adam to Oreos - oh goodness, the boy can't get enough of them now. We were at the grocery store with Bob the other day and we walked by the Oreos and Bob asked Adam if he like Oreos and he replied, "I love them!" It was so funny, I have no idea where he got that! He has started calling me "Honey" and he calls Bob "Babe" - since that is what Bob and I call each other. He has been singing his ABCs lately and has almost all of the letters down except the LMNOP part is a little jumbled together and he can count to 20! I am so proud of how much he is developing lately! He just amazes me everyday!
Now on to some news! Bob and I have met with a new doctor here and we are going to be do another round of IVF in January! I will start the birth control pills in December and then in January I will start all of the drugs and have the egg retrieval by mid-January probably! I am SO excited but also nervous and scared. This doctor seems awesome and they have a incredible success rate but he has already said that he is going to up my meds this time and they do things a little differently than my last doctor did (they don't have me come in as often), which makes me nervous but I just keep telling myself that they have had a ton of success.
Here are some pictures from when we went to Yo Gabba Gabba live - the one with Bob is how he was the entire show!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Where are the Renters?
So we are down to a couple of weeks before our big move and we haven't found a renter for our house yet! I am really getting nervous - we had someone who offered to rent but it was for $400 less than what we were asking but I am thinking that if we don't find anyone soon we might have to go back to them - it's a lot easier to swallow losing $400 per month versus paying our whole mortgage on our own! It just makes me sick because when I see what is out there, what these people are asking to pay is what 1 and 2 bedroom townhomes are going for and we have a really nice 3 bedroom house that we have done a ton of work to.
I just keeping praying that everything will work out and I have to try and make myself see the positive in this that we will all three be together as a family all of the time. Now if I could just motivate myself to start packing.
I just keeping praying that everything will work out and I have to try and make myself see the positive in this that we will all three be together as a family all of the time. Now if I could just motivate myself to start packing.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Big Changes
So we have known for almost a year now that we were going to be moving to Michigan because Bob accepted a full-time job. We have had our house on the market since January without any bites - in the meantime Bob has been commuting from Chicago to Detroit every single Monday-Friday and it has really gotten to him. So we have decided to rent a home in Detroit and in turn rent out our home in Chicago for a year and see what happens and maybe put it back on the market then if things are looking better.
So I went to Detroit last week to look and see what was out there to rent and fell in love with this amazing house and we just found out we got it! So we are moving July 15th! One month away - I have mixed feelings. I am excited for this beautiful home and that Bob won't have to commute like that anymore and that we'll get to see him every night. But I am so sad to leave my family here in Chicago. At least it's only a 5 hour drive but I only have to drive 15 minutes to see them now so it will be an adjustment. But all of Bob's family lives in Detroit so we will have family there and Adam will have tons of cousins to babysit him and for him to look up to - they are all a bit older than him.
So now I am praying that we find a renter really soon for our house because it would not be fun paying rent for one house and paying our mortgage here all on our own!
So I went to Detroit last week to look and see what was out there to rent and fell in love with this amazing house and we just found out we got it! So we are moving July 15th! One month away - I have mixed feelings. I am excited for this beautiful home and that Bob won't have to commute like that anymore and that we'll get to see him every night. But I am so sad to leave my family here in Chicago. At least it's only a 5 hour drive but I only have to drive 15 minutes to see them now so it will be an adjustment. But all of Bob's family lives in Detroit so we will have family there and Adam will have tons of cousins to babysit him and for him to look up to - they are all a bit older than him.
So now I am praying that we find a renter really soon for our house because it would not be fun paying rent for one house and paying our mortgage here all on our own!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Mother's Day
I had a great Mother's Day this past weekend. We went to church with my parent's and then my favorite place for breakfast - it's this little cafe in our town that has the most amazing different things, like red velvet french toast, dreamsicle french toast and things like that. It's not a good place to go if you want something healthy! I got my favorite, this nacho scrambler, basically nachos with eggs on it - sounds gross but it's SO yummy! We then attempted to take Adam to see his first movie. Attempted is the operative word here, what was I thinking that a 16 month old would sit through a movie. I guess I figured since he sat through the Thomas and Friends live show we went to a few weeks ago without moving a muscle I thought he might sit through a movie - WRONG! He lasted maybe 20 minutes and then spent the rest of the movie outside with Bob playing around in the arcade. I enjoyed the movie at least - it was Rio and really cute. I don't think we will try the movie thing with him again for at least another year or so, maybe longer. After that it was off to my parent's for a bbq. The weather was beautiful and the kids played outside ALL day long - I don't think Adam sat down once all day, he had so much fun playing outside with his cousins. I was completely spoiled for Mother's Day - I got a new Coach bag from Bob and Adam - it's a big one that I can use as my new diaper bag since I don't really need to lug around the big diaper bag I had before, now I have a cute stylish bag to use, I had just mentioned in passing not really thinking about it that I wanted to get something so I didn't have to lug the old diaper bag around and Bob had actually got me one! I guess he really does listen when I talk sometimes :) Then my mom got me a necklace that I have wanted forever - its a little silver disc that has Adam's name and birthdate on it - I love it!
I found out yesterday that another friend of mine who did IVF to have her first baby just found out she is pregnant again - a total surprise! They thought they would have to do IVF again to have another one and this happened on their own. Of course I was happy for them but I can't help it the green eyed monster of jealousy is coming forward too! I was really depressed for about an hour yesterday - I mean really, am I ever going to get over this whole infertility thing! So I made Bob have a serious conversation about when we are going to move forward with another one hoping that it will help with my bitterness that I am starting to feel again. So I think we have decided to probably do another round of IVF at the end of summer/early fall, unless we sell our house sooner, we will do it then because I really want to go to my doctor here since she knows my body already and knows the plan we will go with. Plus I don't want to go somewhere new and have to do the intial testing all over again - too much money when it costs so much as it is. I do feel good knowing that if something doesn't happen on our own in the meantime I at least have some kind of timing on when we will be moving forward - but in the meantime I will still hold out that little tiny bit of hope I might have that something could happen on our own. I just need to let it all go and put it in His hands! (Easier said than done though).
I found out yesterday that another friend of mine who did IVF to have her first baby just found out she is pregnant again - a total surprise! They thought they would have to do IVF again to have another one and this happened on their own. Of course I was happy for them but I can't help it the green eyed monster of jealousy is coming forward too! I was really depressed for about an hour yesterday - I mean really, am I ever going to get over this whole infertility thing! So I made Bob have a serious conversation about when we are going to move forward with another one hoping that it will help with my bitterness that I am starting to feel again. So I think we have decided to probably do another round of IVF at the end of summer/early fall, unless we sell our house sooner, we will do it then because I really want to go to my doctor here since she knows my body already and knows the plan we will go with. Plus I don't want to go somewhere new and have to do the intial testing all over again - too much money when it costs so much as it is. I do feel good knowing that if something doesn't happen on our own in the meantime I at least have some kind of timing on when we will be moving forward - but in the meantime I will still hold out that little tiny bit of hope I might have that something could happen on our own. I just need to let it all go and put it in His hands! (Easier said than done though).
Monday, April 25, 2011
Easter in Pictures
Professional Easter Picture
Easter Bunny came to Our House!
Easter Bunny came to Grandma and Grandpa's house too! My mom went a little overboard!
Our Little Family
Easter Egg Hunt!
The Cake Pops I made for Easter! So yummy! My mom bought me a Cake Pop maker and it's my new obsession, they are so yummy and Adam loves them.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Great Book
I just got finished reading the book Heaven is for Real - wow is all I can say! It's about a little boy who had surgery and said he died and went to heaven. His dad wrote the book explaining what his son encountered in heaven. I have always been a believer in heaven and now after reading this I don't know how anyone could doubt it. What this little boy describes is amazing and sounds so beautiful. He even decribed his little sister, his mom had an early miscarriage - made me think about our chemical we had with the frozen embryo transfer. Now I can't stop thinking about our baby in heaven, I just have a peace now and know that he/she is definately up there and is with my husband's parents and my grandparents that we have lost. Really it's a truly comforting thought! I took Adam to see the Easter Bunny the other day - he was SO CUTE with him. Not scared at all. We went during the week and no one else was there so the bunny actually played with Adam for about 15 minutes, he was so happy! I'll have to download the picture and post it, so stinking cute!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Our Trip
Our cruise didn't go exactly as planned. Adam got the stomach flu the weekend before we were supposed to leave. It only lasted 24 hours so I felt pretty good about going. But the night before we were supposed to leave both my husband and I came down with it! It was the worst thing ever - thank goodness we have more than one bathroom! We didn't sleep all night, luckily we were at my parent's house when it hit us so they took Adam for that night because I have no idea how we could have taken care of him. I don't know how we did it but we made it to the airport and onto our flight the next morning. As soon as we got on the cruise ship we went straight to bed and only got up for the mandatory life boat drill and then were out again until the next morning. We felt much better the next day but still not 100% until the last day of our cruise. We both actually lost weight! We put a deposit down on another cruise while we were there so we are going to figure out when to take another one without being sick this time! We might even take Adam with us but I have to admit it was nice just the 2 of us being away. I know Adam had a great time with my parents too - his own mini-vacation!
I took Adam for his 15 month check-up today. He hadn't gained any weight since his 1 year appointment, he is 20 pounds (5th percentile) and 31.5 inches (45th percentile). The doctor isn't concerned about the lack of weight gain because I told him that he eats like a horse but he never sits down. I think if we go back for his 18 month appointment and it's still the same I will be really concerned but I am not at all right now. It's just so hard to find pants to fit him, everything that fits him in the length is SO big in the waist and falls down. They need to sell baby belts or suspenders or something.
Below are some cute pictures we took while Adam was playing dress up with Bob's stuff...
I took Adam for his 15 month check-up today. He hadn't gained any weight since his 1 year appointment, he is 20 pounds (5th percentile) and 31.5 inches (45th percentile). The doctor isn't concerned about the lack of weight gain because I told him that he eats like a horse but he never sits down. I think if we go back for his 18 month appointment and it's still the same I will be really concerned but I am not at all right now. It's just so hard to find pants to fit him, everything that fits him in the length is SO big in the waist and falls down. They need to sell baby belts or suspenders or something.
Below are some cute pictures we took while Adam was playing dress up with Bob's stuff...
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Trip
So excited - Bob and I just booked a cruise for the 2 of us! Just a long weekend for us to get away - it was a great deal. We haven't been away just the 2 of us since before Adam was born. I am nervous to be away from my baby though but my mom and dad are watching him and I know he will be fine. It will be good for the both of us since we are rarely apart from each other.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Jealousy
Is it just me or does there seem to be pregnant people EVERYWHERE lately! I feel like each day there is a announcement about a ton of celebrities that are pregnant. I don't know if maybe I am just sensitive to this but I can't help these feelings of jealousy whenever I hear that. I was doing so good getting over the fact that the FET didn't work and now all of sudden those feelings of disappointment and anger are coming back.
There are 3 different blogs that I read where the girls are pregnant with their 2nd baby naturally after having done IVF for their first! That does give me some glimmer of hope that it could happen but I doubt it. I just don't see how things could change for us and it could happen naturally, especially after our doctor told us that she doesn't think things have changed and we would need to do another IVF to concieve again. I really hate the fact that it costs so much and we are trying to relocate to Detroit right now so it's like our life is on hold. I just want to make Adam a big brother so bad!
There are 3 different blogs that I read where the girls are pregnant with their 2nd baby naturally after having done IVF for their first! That does give me some glimmer of hope that it could happen but I doubt it. I just don't see how things could change for us and it could happen naturally, especially after our doctor told us that she doesn't think things have changed and we would need to do another IVF to concieve again. I really hate the fact that it costs so much and we are trying to relocate to Detroit right now so it's like our life is on hold. I just want to make Adam a big brother so bad!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Adam's 1st Birthday - Christmas
It's been a while. We had a great time on Adam's 1st Birthday and Christmas this year. For Adam's birthday we had just a small family party but we had so much fun. Adam was spoiled rotten! He got a slide, bunches of toys, books and a ride on train! Our house looks like a toy store and that was before Christmas! Once Christmas came it was even more! I'll have to remember that next year and not go so crazy - my parents are going to have to work on that too! It's a lot of stuff to get all at once.
Bob and I went to our RE for our follow up from the failed FET. She suggested another fresh IVF cycle, which I kind of figured she would. She thinks that's our only chance at having another one. Even though I had a feeling that's what she was going to say, it didn't make it any easier to hear, I cried the whole way home. I don't know when Bob and I will do a fresh cycle again because we are in the middle of trying to sell our house and move to Detroit - which really, really depresses me. I know that if we weren't moving there would be no question - we would be doing another cycle right now. I am trying not to be mad about that fact but it's hard not to be resentful about it all. All I know is that when I can finally get Bob to do another fresh cycle, even if we are in Detroit, I will be using the same doctor and just come back and stay with my parents if I have to. I don't even want to think about going to another doctor - since we know that we have had success there.
On a happy note - Here are a few shots from Adam's 1 year photo session....