Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
One More Day
Tomorrow is the big day! Tomorrow we will find out if our dreams will come true! I cannot wait for it to get here but at the same time I am so scared for it to get here. I have not taken anymore tests, I just don't want to put myself through that roller coaster anymore. We will go in for our blood work at 6:30 a.m. but we won't get the results until 3:00 p.m., so it is going to be a very long day!
Dear God,
Please continue to watch over us. Thank you for all of the blessings you have given us thus far. Please let us hear the results that we want to hear tomorrow.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
Dear God,
Please continue to watch over us. Thank you for all of the blessings you have given us thus far. Please let us hear the results that we want to hear tomorrow.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
Friday, April 10, 2009
I first want to apologize for my downer post yesterday. I was just in a huge funk yesterday. I am still in that funk a bit today but nothing like I was then.
I had a dream last night that I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I woke up this morning in somewhat of a panic over it and decided to take a test. I shouldn't have done that! The test was negative just like my dream. So of course I cried my eyes out this morning. I wasn't going to tell Bob what I did but he could tell that something was wrong so I broke down and told him. God Bless Him, he is just so upbeat about everything and thinks that it's just too early, I really hope he is right. I used a test strip that I got for free when I ordered a Fertility Monitor a LONG time ago. The strip did not come with any directions so I am not even sure if I did it right but I am pretty sure I did. I don't think those pick up early detection though like some of those out there. I do have some of the more expensive ones at home but I don't think I am going to test anymore, it's just too depressing to see the negative results. The only time I might test again is the morning of my bloodwork so that I am prepared for when the nurse calls. I really wish that Tuesday would be here! Hopefully with the holiday coming up this weekend that will make the weekend go by fast and then I just have to get through one LONG day at work on Monday.
Dear God,
Please forgive me for doubting you yesterday. I know that you are not punishing me and that there is some reason that you are having me struggle right now. I know I don't know the answer to why but I am really, really trying to just trust in you and know that you will watch over us and help us to acheive our goal of becoming parents. Please continue to bless these 2 embryos that are inside of me right now, please help them to continue to grow. Sunday is Easter, a time to celebrate your reserection, Easter is about new life - I hope that you will bless us with a new life very, very soon.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
I had a dream last night that I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I woke up this morning in somewhat of a panic over it and decided to take a test. I shouldn't have done that! The test was negative just like my dream. So of course I cried my eyes out this morning. I wasn't going to tell Bob what I did but he could tell that something was wrong so I broke down and told him. God Bless Him, he is just so upbeat about everything and thinks that it's just too early, I really hope he is right. I used a test strip that I got for free when I ordered a Fertility Monitor a LONG time ago. The strip did not come with any directions so I am not even sure if I did it right but I am pretty sure I did. I don't think those pick up early detection though like some of those out there. I do have some of the more expensive ones at home but I don't think I am going to test anymore, it's just too depressing to see the negative results. The only time I might test again is the morning of my bloodwork so that I am prepared for when the nurse calls. I really wish that Tuesday would be here! Hopefully with the holiday coming up this weekend that will make the weekend go by fast and then I just have to get through one LONG day at work on Monday.
Dear God,
Please forgive me for doubting you yesterday. I know that you are not punishing me and that there is some reason that you are having me struggle right now. I know I don't know the answer to why but I am really, really trying to just trust in you and know that you will watch over us and help us to acheive our goal of becoming parents. Please continue to bless these 2 embryos that are inside of me right now, please help them to continue to grow. Sunday is Easter, a time to celebrate your reserection, Easter is about new life - I hope that you will bless us with a new life very, very soon.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Still Waiting
We are still just sitting and waiting for our blood test on Tuesday. I really think this is the worst part of the whole process! I over-analyze everything that happens with my body and it is driving me crazy. I am not having a good day today, mentally. I woke up and noticed that my face is starting to break out, my face always breaks out before my monthly visitor shows up. So on the train on my way into work this morning I obsessed the whole time and started crying, how embarassing! And now I am just sitting at my desk at work just staring at the clock willing it to be 4:30 so I can go home when it is only 8:30 right now, so a LONG day is a head of me. Why is this all happening to me? What am I being punished for? What did I do wrong?
Dear God,
Please, please let these babies inside me be growing right now. I know you have a plan for us but I just can't imagine getting through something like the failure of this. Please help me to understand what I did wrong in your eyes and help me to know why I am being punished.
Dear God,
Please, please let these babies inside me be growing right now. I know you have a plan for us but I just can't imagine getting through something like the failure of this. Please help me to understand what I did wrong in your eyes and help me to know why I am being punished.
Monday, April 6, 2009
The Waiting Game
Here I am playing the waiting game. Just waiting for next Tuesday to be here so that I can find out if this worked! Please let this week go by fast!
For the past 3 mornings I have felt hot and nauceous - I think it is just a side effect of the progesterone I am on though. Also, the night before yesterday I had a sharp pain in my lower abdomen that lasted only a second. I am just over-analyzing everything I am feeling and driving myself crazy!
Some good news - I just heard from the doctor's office - 2 of the 3 embryos we had left made it to the point to freeze! So we now have 2 snow babies!
Dear God,
Thank you so much for watching over all of our embies and helping them to thrive! Please continue your blessings upon us and help the 2 embies that are inside me to continue to grow.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
PS - Please bless all of those women that I know that are going through the same thing, please watch over them all and allow them all to get the positive results that they all so desperately want!
For the past 3 mornings I have felt hot and nauceous - I think it is just a side effect of the progesterone I am on though. Also, the night before yesterday I had a sharp pain in my lower abdomen that lasted only a second. I am just over-analyzing everything I am feeling and driving myself crazy!
Some good news - I just heard from the doctor's office - 2 of the 3 embryos we had left made it to the point to freeze! So we now have 2 snow babies!
Dear God,
Thank you so much for watching over all of our embies and helping them to thrive! Please continue your blessings upon us and help the 2 embies that are inside me to continue to grow.
Love,
Alicia & Bob
PS - Please bless all of those women that I know that are going through the same thing, please watch over them all and allow them all to get the positive results that they all so desperately want!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Transfer Complete
As of right now I am knocked up! We had our transfer this morning! I was not feeling it walking in there but after talking to the embryologist I was in the best mood. She said all 5 of our embies are stil growing strong but 2 of them are ahead of the others. She said they were perfect Grade 4 (the highest) and those were the 2 we were going to put back in!
Bob was in the room with me holding my hand. We walked in, I got in the chair, they put on a CD - Sarah McClaghlin (don't know why that one but it was relaxing) and did the transfer! I had tears in my eyes when they said the transfer was complete! I can't even explain how I felt at that time! We left with pictures of each of our embryos (our first baby pictures) and a picture of them placed inside my uterus! As we were walking out there was a lady there with her brand new twins, I told Bob, that's a sign!
My blood test will be on April 14th! I can't wait!
Dear God,
Thank you so much for continuing to bless us. Thank you for watching over our embryos and helping them continue to thrive. Please bless the 2 embryos that are inside me right now and help them to attach and hold on for 9 months! Also please bless the 3 embryos we still have growing in the lab and help them to become strong so that they can be frozen for future use. Lord, you have truly been to great to us and have blessed us so much! Please continue your guidance and protection over us!
Love,
Alicia & Bob
Bob was in the room with me holding my hand. We walked in, I got in the chair, they put on a CD - Sarah McClaghlin (don't know why that one but it was relaxing) and did the transfer! I had tears in my eyes when they said the transfer was complete! I can't even explain how I felt at that time! We left with pictures of each of our embryos (our first baby pictures) and a picture of them placed inside my uterus! As we were walking out there was a lady there with her brand new twins, I told Bob, that's a sign!
My blood test will be on April 14th! I can't wait!
Dear God,
Thank you so much for continuing to bless us. Thank you for watching over our embryos and helping them continue to thrive. Please bless the 2 embryos that are inside me right now and help them to attach and hold on for 9 months! Also please bless the 3 embryos we still have growing in the lab and help them to become strong so that they can be frozen for future use. Lord, you have truly been to great to us and have blessed us so much! Please continue your guidance and protection over us!
Love,
Alicia & Bob
Here are the first baby pictures!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Transfer
Just got the call from the doctor's office, we are doing our transfer at 9:30 a.m. tomorrow! I am so excited! They didn't give an actual report, just said things are looking good and ready for the transfer tomorrow, she didn't sound worried about anything.
I cannot wait to get my babies inside me! I am so nervous, scared, excited and just a ball of feelings right now! Tomorrow will be the first time that I have ever had embryos inside my body! It is amazing to think that my egg and Bob's sperm are growning 5 embryos! It is truly a miracle. I am not going to be able to sleep a wink tonight! I just want tomorrow to be here!
Dear God,
Please continue to watch our 5 embryos and help them to continue to grow strong and healthy! Please watch over us tomorrow as our babies are placed inside me, please help them to attach and to continue to grow for nine months! Thank you for all of the blessings you have bestowed upon us thus far!
Love,
Alicia & Bob
I cannot wait to get my babies inside me! I am so nervous, scared, excited and just a ball of feelings right now! Tomorrow will be the first time that I have ever had embryos inside my body! It is amazing to think that my egg and Bob's sperm are growning 5 embryos! It is truly a miracle. I am not going to be able to sleep a wink tonight! I just want tomorrow to be here!
Dear God,
Please continue to watch our 5 embryos and help them to continue to grow strong and healthy! Please watch over us tomorrow as our babies are placed inside me, please help them to attach and to continue to grow for nine months! Thank you for all of the blessings you have bestowed upon us thus far!
Love,
Alicia & Bob