Yes I Am Still Here

It has been a LONG, LONG time! We have been so busy!

Since I last updated we have relocated to Michigan. It was really, really hard at first but I think both Adam and I are starting to get used to it. The move here was terrible, we had really bad luck with the moving company we used (they ruined a bunch of our stuff, which still isn't fixed)took a lot longer than anticiptated so I think off the bat I was not happy about the whole situation at all. My husband is so happy to be back where he grew up and where his friends and family are - now if he just wouldn't work so much we could actually see everyone more. He has been working on this one project since we moved that has taken up so much of his time - everyday he is gone before we get up and many days doesn't get home until after we are in bed! Also, there has been maybe 15 or so days that he has made it home for dinner. I had a really hard time with all of this and was really depressed about the whole thing for a while there. It wasn't pretty at all, I was actually getting really worried about myself. But, things are getting better. Adam and I are going out and doing more things - he has a music class and a playgroup class he does at the park district here, and I am constantly looking for more things to do so we can meet new people. And Bob's project he is working on is starting to slow down so he is getting home at a normal time lately - which is awesome for us all to be together as a family! That was the whole point of us moving here to be together more often.

Adam is doing AMAZING! He is talking SO MUCH and we can have little conversations with him. He LOVES to sing and his favorite shows are Yo Gabba Gabba and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. We actually took him to see Yo Gabba Gabba LIVE a few weeks ago and he was so adorable there! He didn't move a muscle the entire time. I can tell that he is going to be a shy kid like Bob and I both were growing up. He tends to stand back in music class and isn't the kid that is loud and running around but he is getting so much better about not having to be right by me the whole time. I am really trying to find something for him where I can drop him off and leave because I feel like he needs something like that. It's to the point where I can't leave him at all, not even with Bob or he'll cry.
We were at my parents house a few weeks ago and my dad introduced Adam to Oreos - oh goodness, the boy can't get enough of them now. We were at the grocery store with Bob the other day and we walked by the Oreos and Bob asked Adam if he like Oreos and he replied, "I love them!" It was so funny, I have no idea where he got that! He has started calling me "Honey" and he calls Bob "Babe" - since that is what Bob and I call each other. He has been singing his ABCs lately and has almost all of the letters down except the LMNOP part is a little jumbled together and he can count to 20! I am so proud of how much he is developing lately! He just amazes me everyday!

Now on to some news! Bob and I have met with a new doctor here and we are going to be do another round of IVF in January! I will start the birth control pills in December and then in January I will start all of the drugs and have the egg retrieval by mid-January probably! I am SO excited but also nervous and scared. This doctor seems awesome and they have a incredible success rate but he has already said that he is going to up my meds this time and they do things a little differently than my last doctor did (they don't have me come in as often), which makes me nervous but I just keep telling myself that they have had a ton of success.

Here are some pictures from when we went to Yo Gabba Gabba live - the one with Bob is how he was the entire show!

Where are the Renters?

So we are down to a couple of weeks before our big move and we haven't found a renter for our house yet! I am really getting nervous - we had someone who offered to rent but it was for $400 less than what we were asking but I am thinking that if we don't find anyone soon we might have to go back to them - it's a lot easier to swallow losing $400 per month versus paying our whole mortgage on our own! It just makes me sick because when I see what is out there, what these people are asking to pay is what 1 and 2 bedroom townhomes are going for and we have a really nice 3 bedroom house that we have done a ton of work to.
I just keeping praying that everything will work out and I have to try and make myself see the positive in this that we will all three be together as a family all of the time. Now if I could just motivate myself to start packing.

Big Changes

So we have known for almost a year now that we were going to be moving to Michigan because Bob accepted a full-time job. We have had our house on the market since January without any bites - in the meantime Bob has been commuting from Chicago to Detroit every single Monday-Friday and it has really gotten to him. So we have decided to rent a home in Detroit and in turn rent out our home in Chicago for a year and see what happens and maybe put it back on the market then if things are looking better.
So I went to Detroit last week to look and see what was out there to rent and fell in love with this amazing house and we just found out we got it! So we are moving July 15th! One month away - I have mixed feelings. I am excited for this beautiful home and that Bob won't have to commute like that anymore and that we'll get to see him every night. But I am so sad to leave my family here in Chicago. At least it's only a 5 hour drive but I only have to drive 15 minutes to see them now so it will be an adjustment. But all of Bob's family lives in Detroit so we will have family there and Adam will have tons of cousins to babysit him and for him to look up to - they are all a bit older than him.
So now I am praying that we find a renter really soon for our house because it would not be fun paying rent for one house and paying our mortgage here all on our own!

Mother's Day

I had a great Mother's Day this past weekend. We went to church with my parent's and then my favorite place for breakfast - it's this little cafe in our town that has the most amazing different things, like red velvet french toast, dreamsicle french toast and things like that. It's not a good place to go if you want something healthy! I got my favorite, this nacho scrambler, basically nachos with eggs on it - sounds gross but it's SO yummy! We then attempted to take Adam to see his first movie. Attempted is the operative word here, what was I thinking that a 16 month old would sit through a movie. I guess I figured since he sat through the Thomas and Friends live show we went to a few weeks ago without moving a muscle I thought he might sit through a movie - WRONG! He lasted maybe 20 minutes and then spent the rest of the movie outside with Bob playing around in the arcade. I enjoyed the movie at least - it was Rio and really cute. I don't think we will try the movie thing with him again for at least another year or so, maybe longer. After that it was off to my parent's for a bbq. The weather was beautiful and the kids played outside ALL day long - I don't think Adam sat down once all day, he had so much fun playing outside with his cousins. I was completely spoiled for Mother's Day - I got a new Coach bag from Bob and Adam - it's a big one that I can use as my new diaper bag since I don't really need to lug around the big diaper bag I had before, now I have a cute stylish bag to use, I had just mentioned in passing not really thinking about it that I wanted to get something so I didn't have to lug the old diaper bag around and Bob had actually got me one! I guess he really does listen when I talk sometimes :) Then my mom got me a necklace that I have wanted forever - its a little silver disc that has Adam's name and birthdate on it - I love it!

I found out yesterday that another friend of mine who did IVF to have her first baby just found out she is pregnant again - a total surprise! They thought they would have to do IVF again to have another one and this happened on their own. Of course I was happy for them but I can't help it the green eyed monster of jealousy is coming forward too! I was really depressed for about an hour yesterday - I mean really, am I ever going to get over this whole infertility thing! So I made Bob have a serious conversation about when we are going to move forward with another one hoping that it will help with my bitterness that I am starting to feel again. So I think we have decided to probably do another round of IVF at the end of summer/early fall, unless we sell our house sooner, we will do it then because I really want to go to my doctor here since she knows my body already and knows the plan we will go with. Plus I don't want to go somewhere new and have to do the intial testing all over again - too much money when it costs so much as it is. I do feel good knowing that if something doesn't happen on our own in the meantime I at least have some kind of timing on when we will be moving forward - but in the meantime I will still hold out that little tiny bit of hope I might have that something could happen on our own. I just need to let it all go and put it in His hands! (Easier said than done though).

Easter in Pictures

Professional Easter Picture

Easter Bunny came to Our House!

Easter Bunny came to Grandma and Grandpa's house too! My mom went a little overboard!

Our Little Family

Easter Egg Hunt!

The Cake Pops I made for Easter! So yummy! My mom bought me a Cake Pop maker and it's my new obsession, they are so yummy and Adam loves them.

Picture with the Easter Bunny

Great Book

I just got finished reading the book Heaven is for Real - wow is all I can say! It's about a little boy who had surgery and said he died and went to heaven. His dad wrote the book explaining what his son encountered in heaven. I have always been a believer in heaven and now after reading this I don't know how anyone could doubt it. What this little boy describes is amazing and sounds so beautiful. He even decribed his little sister, his mom had an early miscarriage - made me think about our chemical we had with the frozen embryo transfer. Now I can't stop thinking about our baby in heaven, I just have a peace now and know that he/she is definately up there and is with my husband's parents and my grandparents that we have lost. Really it's a truly comforting thought! I took Adam to see the Easter Bunny the other day - he was SO CUTE with him. Not scared at all. We went during the week and no one else was there so the bunny actually played with Adam for about 15 minutes, he was so happy! I'll have to download the picture and post it, so stinking cute!