Reality is Setting In

Last week Adam and I went with Bob to Detroit while he worked in the office. While Bob was at work during the day Adam and I would go and explore different areas that we are looking at moving too. For some reason going there last week really hit me that this is really happening and I have to admit I am really scared now. I am going to miss my mom and dad and sister and her family so much! I see them every single weekend and my parents I see many times during the week since they are only 15 minutes away. I know we won't be that far and they can still drive to visit us but I am still really sad about not being able to just hop in the car and see them for the evening. It makes me sad that Adam won't grow up spending the night at MaMa and PaPa's house like my sister's kids do - that he won't be able to see them every weekend. He won't have the close bond that my sister's kids do to them and it breaks my heart. I know deep down that this is truly the right decision for our family but it doesn't mean that I am 100% thrilled about it. I was all excited when this first happened but now that the reality is hitting me I am really sad and scared. My parent's mean the world to me and I value everything they do for us, I just can't imagine what it's going to be like to not have them there when I need to do something and can drop Adam off for a bit.

There is a positive though - we will be with Bob's family. He has 1 brother and 3 sister's and they all have kids, 10 in all (grant it they are older, ranging in age from 22-6) but they are so much fun and it will be great that Adam will grow up knowing his cousins and Aunt's and Uncle's (Bob's parents have both passed away). Also, all of Bob's friends are there and they mostly have kids or are just starting to have kids so I definately have them to hang out with and hopefully between all of those people we could still have people as babysitters that could help us out every once in awhile - especially since we will be doing our FET soon and hopefully I will be pregnant when we move there.

Our house still isn't on the market, we are just trying to get everything done that we want to do to make it look the best it can before we put it up. It's hard though when Bob is travelling so much but hopefully we can complete it within the next few weeks so we can put it up before Bob goes out for a tour in September that he'll be on until Thanksgiving - I really don't want to wait until then to put it up.

Adam is doing wonderful! He has 4 teeth now (the bottom 2 and 2 fangs on the top!)! He is very hip right now with all of the vampire stuff going on! I think I see one of the front top 2 coming in soon. He is scooting everywhere and is quite fast at it now. He gets up on his hands and knees and rocks so I know the crawling isn't far behind! He is a very curious little boy and gets into everything, I know I am going to have my hands full with him. He just started to kind of wave a bit and it's so freaking cute! I gave him cheese and bananas for the first time this weekend and he LOVED them. We went with my sister and her kids to get all of the kids pictures taken. Boy was that something - trying to get 3 kids 2 1/2 and under to sit, look and the camera and smile at the same time - impossible! But here are a couple of the pictures...

Adam's 6 Month Photos

7 Months and Next Step and Big Move

My little guy turned 7 months on Saturday! He is doing so great! Loves to eat just about everything - we started giving him apples, watermelon and canteloupe in one of those mesh holder things and he gets so excited when he sees us get it out of the drawer! He loves fruit, it makes a huge mess but he is so happy that I don't care. We have also started to give him some teething biscuits and puffs which is so funny to watch him "chew". He doesn't like juice though or water so I am just going to stick with formula - I don't really want him drinking juice right now anyway - the doctor just suggested trying when he gets constipated but we haven't had issues with that lately so I am not going to worry about the juice thing. He is now sitting up really well on his own and is starting to get up on all fours but can't figure out what to do from there. He does scoot though on his tummy and is all over the place!

We got his 6 month pictures ordered finally and I hope to have them soon so I can post them - they turned our really, really cute! What else - oh yea - his newest discovery - his little member! He especially loves to find it when he is in the bathtub - I can't help but laugh everytime he does because he gets this really funny look on his face and it just kills me everytime!

Bob and I went to our RE today to discuss the 2 frozen embryos we have because big news in our house, Bob got a full time job and we will be relocating to Detroit, MI! Bob is really excited to be going back to his hometown - all of his family and friends are there. I am excited for the move too but also really sad to be leaving my mom and dad, sister and her family in Chicago. I try not to think about that too much and keep telling myself that Chicago is only a short 4-5 hour drive from where we are looking to move to in Detroit. One good thing for us is that we can get an amazing house right now in Detroit for what ours cost in Chicago - I just hope that we can sell our house. I have pretty much come to the conclusion that we aren't going to make any money on this house, I just don't want to have to pay anymore than what we have already put into it. We never imagined 2 years ago when we moved in here that we would be leaving so soon!

Anyway - the appointment today. Bob and I were pretty sure that we wanted to transfer the embryos before we moved (November/December) - we wanted our kids to be 1 1/2 years apart or so. Good thing we went in to discuss because the RE would like to start are the pre-work and testing in August for a October/November transfer! So it looks like we will be on our way next month! We have 2 frozen embryos and we will thaw and transfer both of them - the RE said they were both "excellent" as far as the condition even better than the ones we transferred on our IVF cycle so she once again reitterated that twins is a possibility. I can't believe that the ball is going to start rolling soon! It is so funny going through all of this the 2nd time around. I told Bob when we were in the elevator that I was so relaxed as compared to what I would feel when we would have appointments for the IVF. We already have one completely perfect baby that I really think I would be fine if that was all we ended up with. So I just don't feel as stressed out or pressure this time.

6 Months Old

My baby boy is 6 months old now! I can't believe how fast time has gone by in another 6 months it is hard to believe that we will be celebrating his 1st birthday! I really pray those 6 months don't go by as fast as the first ones did!

Adam is doing great - at his doctor's appointment he was 17 pounds (50%) and 25.5 inches (10%). We are now moving onto stage 2 foods but I want to finish the cabinet full of 1's that I have before we do that. He got his 4 shots and that is the last time he has to get that many for awhile according to the doctor - thank goodness! We are working on the sitting up thing and he was doing really good for awhile but now all of sudden he is being stubborn and won't do it. I really wanted him sitting up for his 6 month pictures but I don't think that is going to happen (little stinker).

New things he has done lately - he LOVES his feet and they are constantly in his mouth - even if he has shoes on. He can now scoot in circles and get to toys that are on the floor around him. He squeals and screams up a storm because he always so happy. And my absolute favorite - he gives kisses now! It's so cute he'll grab your face with both hands and pull it towards his open mouth and just holds you there! He does it everytime we say "Kisses"! Melts my heart everytime! Adam went swimming for the first time a couple of weeks ago and had so much fun. He was kicking his legs like crazy and kept wanting to put his face in the water. I can't wait for his swim lessons to start next week!

We celebrated Father's Day on Friday because Bob left on Saturday to go out of town again. We were going to go to this yummy German restaurant that Bob loves but the power was out when we got there because there was a huge storm that just came through. So we went home and just had K.F.C instead. We got Bob a cute shirt with Adam's picture on it that says "Daddy's Little Buddy" that he can wear as an undershirt when he is travelling. We also got him a travel mug with a bunch of pictures of Adam on it and a few other odds and ends.

And I just have to brag a bit because I am so excited about this. I started doing WW a couple of months ago and had my weigh in yesterday and I have now lost 25 pounds! I am so excited and starting to feel like myself again. It feels so good to be able to put on my clothes that I wore before we even started the IVF process (because I gained a lot of weight with that) and they are even a little big. I am going to keep going, I think I have another 10 to 15 pounds to go before I'll be at my absolute goal weight!

I'll post pictures of little man later on.

I know I said I was going to be better at blogging and I haven't done that at all. Things are good here. Adam is still happy as ever and so much fun. We are practicing on him sitting up and I am hoping by his 6 month birthday we'll be there but who knows. Bob is still travelling a ton and it's a lot of just Adam and Mommy time but this is the last month he'll be gone a lot and most of July and all of August he'll be home! We joined the Community pool so I can't wait to go swimming - they opened up yesterday but the weather has been crappy so I just keep waiting for that first nice day. I also signed up for a Mommy/Baby swim class that starts in 2 weeks - I can't wait!

Here a picture of Adam in a new outfit I got him - I couldn't resist when I saw it in the store!

Mother's Day

I had the best 1st Mother's Day ever. We got up and went to church with my parent's, my brother (who came in town to surprise my mom) and my sister and her family. At church they had a blessing for all of the mothers where they called us up to the center of Church and had a prayer and then we all got tulips as we walked back to our seats! I am such a sap and started crying during the blessing. We then went for a yummy breakfast. Afterwards Bob and I went home and all 3 of us took a nap in bed together - I love when we all 3 snuggle together in bed. We then went to a pottery place where I made a plate with Adam's foot print - I can't wait to pick it up next week. Then we all had dinner over at my parents. I got a Pandora bracelet and tons of beads! I was on cloud nine the entire day!

Being a Mommy is so much more than I ever thought it could be. I thank God everyday that he blessed me with this amazing baby boy! I am in awe everyday how much I am in love with him! Knowing a mother's love for their child has really made me look at my mom differently. She is so amazing and I couldn't have picked a better mother. I hope that I am able to do as good of a job with Adam as she has done with us.

Moving

Monday morning Adam rolled from his back to his tummy for the first time. He has been going crazy since then - he kind of rolls across the room now! I haven't actually seen him do it but I will put him under his play gym and go and do something and he'll be completely across the room from where the gym is. It's so funny because I'll always ask him how he got over there and he'll have this huge, proud grin on his face. This is just the beginning of his independence and it's so amazing to watch.

He has now had peas, carrots and sweet potatoes. He has seemed to like everything we have given him thus far. We have green beans and squash to try and then we'll be moving onto fruits. I have a feeling he'll love those.

This past weekend I had my niece spend the night. We had a lot of fun - making cupcakes and watching Disney movies but she is definately a handful right now. She is 2 years old and when you tell her no she does not like it at all and will have a tantrum. So needless to say I gave into her a lot. But I figured I am the fun aunt and that's what I should do :) She loves Adam or "Baby Adam" as she calls him and was a huge help wanting to get diapers and help feed him. But wow - it's hard to have 2 little ones around - such a big difference from one - especially since I had them alone. I felt guilty when I had to do something for one of them and had to leave the other one sitting there. It made me nervous about having another one but I know once we do have another baby it will all just fall into place.

Speaking of another baby - Bob is already asking when we are going to have our next one! We have 2 frozen embryos waiting for us. (I always tease that they are Adam's sisters). I always thought that I would want to have the Frozen Egg Transfer sooner rather than later but now I don't know - I kind of want Adam to be a little older so that we can just focus on him for a while. My brother and I are 2 years apart and I think that sounds good but I think Bob might want to have them 1 1/2 years apart so we'll just see. I am just so happy right now with my baby boy and can't even think about that right now.