I had a great Mother's Day this past weekend. We went to church with my parent's and then my favorite place for breakfast - it's this little cafe in our town that has the most amazing different things, like red velvet french toast, dreamsicle french toast and things like that. It's not a good place to go if you want something healthy! I got my favorite, this nacho scrambler, basically nachos with eggs on it - sounds gross but it's SO yummy! We then attempted to take Adam to see his first movie. Attempted is the operative word here, what was I thinking that a 16 month old would sit through a movie. I guess I figured since he sat through the Thomas and Friends live show we went to a few weeks ago without moving a muscle I thought he might sit through a movie - WRONG! He lasted maybe 20 minutes and then spent the rest of the movie outside with Bob playing around in the arcade. I enjoyed the movie at least - it was Rio and really cute. I don't think we will try the movie thing with him again for at least another year or so, maybe longer. After that it was off to my parent's for a bbq. The weather was beautiful and the kids played outside ALL day long - I don't think Adam sat down once all day, he had so much fun playing outside with his cousins. I was completely spoiled for Mother's Day - I got a new Coach bag from Bob and Adam - it's a big one that I can use as my new diaper bag since I don't really need to lug around the big diaper bag I had before, now I have a cute stylish bag to use, I had just mentioned in passing not really thinking about it that I wanted to get something so I didn't have to lug the old diaper bag around and Bob had actually got me one! I guess he really does listen when I talk sometimes :) Then my mom got me a necklace that I have wanted forever - its a little silver disc that has Adam's name and birthdate on it - I love it!
I found out yesterday that another friend of mine who did IVF to have her first baby just found out she is pregnant again - a total surprise! They thought they would have to do IVF again to have another one and this happened on their own. Of course I was happy for them but I can't help it the green eyed monster of jealousy is coming forward too! I was really depressed for about an hour yesterday - I mean really, am I ever going to get over this whole infertility thing! So I made Bob have a serious conversation about when we are going to move forward with another one hoping that it will help with my bitterness that I am starting to feel again. So I think we have decided to probably do another round of IVF at the end of summer/early fall, unless we sell our house sooner, we will do it then because I really want to go to my doctor here since she knows my body already and knows the plan we will go with. Plus I don't want to go somewhere new and have to do the intial testing all over again - too much money when it costs so much as it is. I do feel good knowing that if something doesn't happen on our own in the meantime I at least have some kind of timing on when we will be moving forward - but in the meantime I will still hold out that little tiny bit of hope I might have that something could happen on our own. I just need to let it all go and put it in His hands! (Easier said than done though).
