Trip

So excited - Bob and I just booked a cruise for the 2 of us! Just a long weekend for us to get away - it was a great deal. We haven't been away just the 2 of us since before Adam was born. I am nervous to be away from my baby though but my mom and dad are watching him and I know he will be fine. It will be good for the both of us since we are rarely apart from each other.

Jealousy

Is it just me or does there seem to be pregnant people EVERYWHERE lately! I feel like each day there is a announcement about a ton of celebrities that are pregnant. I don't know if maybe I am just sensitive to this but I can't help these feelings of jealousy whenever I hear that. I was doing so good getting over the fact that the FET didn't work and now all of sudden those feelings of disappointment and anger are coming back.
There are 3 different blogs that I read where the girls are pregnant with their 2nd baby naturally after having done IVF for their first! That does give me some glimmer of hope that it could happen but I doubt it. I just don't see how things could change for us and it could happen naturally, especially after our doctor told us that she doesn't think things have changed and we would need to do another IVF to concieve again. I really hate the fact that it costs so much and we are trying to relocate to Detroit right now so it's like our life is on hold. I just want to make Adam a big brother so bad!

Adam's 1st Birthday - Christmas

It's been a while. We had a great time on Adam's 1st Birthday and Christmas this year. For Adam's birthday we had just a small family party but we had so much fun. Adam was spoiled rotten! He got a slide, bunches of toys, books and a ride on train! Our house looks like a toy store and that was before Christmas! Once Christmas came it was even more! I'll have to remember that next year and not go so crazy - my parents are going to have to work on that too! It's a lot of stuff to get all at once.

Bob and I went to our RE for our follow up from the failed FET. She suggested another fresh IVF cycle, which I kind of figured she would. She thinks that's our only chance at having another one. Even though I had a feeling that's what she was going to say, it didn't make it any easier to hear, I cried the whole way home. I don't know when Bob and I will do a fresh cycle again because we are in the middle of trying to sell our house and move to Detroit - which really, really depresses me. I know that if we weren't moving there would be no question - we would be doing another cycle right now. I am trying not to be mad about that fact but it's hard not to be resentful about it all. All I know is that when I can finally get Bob to do another fresh cycle, even if we are in Detroit, I will be using the same doctor and just come back and stay with my parents if I have to. I don't even want to think about going to another doctor - since we know that we have had success there.

On a happy note - Here are a few shots from Adam's 1 year photo session....