Follow Up Appointment

We went for our follow up appointment with the doctor on Friday. He said that as far as the cycle everything went perfectly and there was no reason that it shouldn't have worked, it unfortunately was just one of those things that we can't explain. He said we didn't need to do any additional testing or anything and is confident that we will get pregnant soon. He stressed how are embryo quality is excellent and the 5 frozen embryos are in great shape. So even though we didn't leave with any solid answers I do feel better because he was so optimistic and even said all of the doctors got together and looked at the file and agreed how great everything went. So knowing that they don't think there is another problem is a huge relief.
He wants us to wait 2 cycles until we try a frozen embryo transfer - so I'll start birth control pills in March to regulate my system and hopefully all goes well and at the end of April we will have that transfer.

Not the News I was Hoping For

So my blood test came back negative. I had pretty much convinced myself this weekend that it didn't work, I just had this feeling and then I started spotting on Saturday afternoon so that was pretty much the nail in the coffin for me that told me it was over. Surprisingly I am handling it ok today, I think because I cried so much this weekend.

One bright spot is we have 5 frozen embryos! I just got that news today too, so that made me feel better about this not working. So we are going to meet with our doctor to discuss this past cycle and then see how soon we can move on and try the frozen ones.

So Mad at Myself

I am so mad at myself. Against my better judgement I took a home pregnancy test yesterday afternoon and it came up negative. I cried and cried and cried all afternoon. Why did I do that to myself. I am still holding out a little bit of hope that it might be too early. When I had Adam I took a test the same day (11 days past ovulation) and it came out negative and then 15 days past ovulation I had my blood work and it was 80, so I am hoping that I am just a low beta kind of girl and the same will happen this time. But I have to admit it is harder to stay positive now, I am really, really trying. I need all the prayers out there that I can get that this has worked!

PS - I called the doctor about my other embryos yesterday to see if any had made it to freeze and they said that it takes a week to get the paperwork - seriously I need to know if there are some left over so that if it hasn't worked this time at least I know we have those (even though I am not so confident on frozen transfers since the one we had didn't work) but at least it's something to hold onto because there is no way we can afford another round of IVF if this didn't work.

This Wait is Killing Me

This is seriously the worst part of the whole IVF process is the waiting to find out if it worked. It completely consumes my thoughts all day long! One day I feel positive that it worked and then the next not so much. I was going to take a home pregnancy test before my bloodwork on Monday but the possibility of seeing a negative is scaring me.