Reality is Setting In

Last week Adam and I went with Bob to Detroit while he worked in the office. While Bob was at work during the day Adam and I would go and explore different areas that we are looking at moving too. For some reason going there last week really hit me that this is really happening and I have to admit I am really scared now. I am going to miss my mom and dad and sister and her family so much! I see them every single weekend and my parents I see many times during the week since they are only 15 minutes away. I know we won't be that far and they can still drive to visit us but I am still really sad about not being able to just hop in the car and see them for the evening. It makes me sad that Adam won't grow up spending the night at MaMa and PaPa's house like my sister's kids do - that he won't be able to see them every weekend. He won't have the close bond that my sister's kids do to them and it breaks my heart. I know deep down that this is truly the right decision for our family but it doesn't mean that I am 100% thrilled about it. I was all excited when this first happened but now that the reality is hitting me I am really sad and scared. My parent's mean the world to me and I value everything they do for us, I just can't imagine what it's going to be like to not have them there when I need to do something and can drop Adam off for a bit.

There is a positive though - we will be with Bob's family. He has 1 brother and 3 sister's and they all have kids, 10 in all (grant it they are older, ranging in age from 22-6) but they are so much fun and it will be great that Adam will grow up knowing his cousins and Aunt's and Uncle's (Bob's parents have both passed away). Also, all of Bob's friends are there and they mostly have kids or are just starting to have kids so I definately have them to hang out with and hopefully between all of those people we could still have people as babysitters that could help us out every once in awhile - especially since we will be doing our FET soon and hopefully I will be pregnant when we move there.

Our house still isn't on the market, we are just trying to get everything done that we want to do to make it look the best it can before we put it up. It's hard though when Bob is travelling so much but hopefully we can complete it within the next few weeks so we can put it up before Bob goes out for a tour in September that he'll be on until Thanksgiving - I really don't want to wait until then to put it up.

Adam is doing wonderful! He has 4 teeth now (the bottom 2 and 2 fangs on the top!)! He is very hip right now with all of the vampire stuff going on! I think I see one of the front top 2 coming in soon. He is scooting everywhere and is quite fast at it now. He gets up on his hands and knees and rocks so I know the crawling isn't far behind! He is a very curious little boy and gets into everything, I know I am going to have my hands full with him. He just started to kind of wave a bit and it's so freaking cute! I gave him cheese and bananas for the first time this weekend and he LOVED them. We went with my sister and her kids to get all of the kids pictures taken. Boy was that something - trying to get 3 kids 2 1/2 and under to sit, look and the camera and smile at the same time - impossible! But here are a couple of the pictures...